Treading Water

Whoa. What a week. It's only Wednesday? I feel like today should be Friday. I am still at work and it's almost 7pm. Where do I start?

So, it's been a while since I've blogged. Reason? Well, for one, when in the midst of some serious stuff I cannot allow myself to blog...because I'm without pretense, remember? I had some crazy emotions, thoughts, etc. last week that had I blogged, ya'll would've been calling the police(this woman might just kill someone! LOL), the intercessors (actually I should've called them myself), my momma, and the senior pastors saying how the heck did ya'll let this woman be on the pastoral team?

Ok, all jokes aside; last week was kinda tumultuous. I think what it boils down to is CHANGE. A lot is changing in my life right now and in the near future. Actually a lot isn't presently changing, but when the curve ball was thrown at me of "hey you're only employed till the end of this year" I had to start planning AHEAD. I started to get too far ahead of myself I think. All of a sudden I'm attending psychology program open houses, thinking about financial aid and scholarships for school, planning for 2010 for H2O (the youth program), in addition to dealing with the news of my coworkers situations (one is on chemo and won't be back before we close down, another's spouse has stage 3 cancer and has to do chemo, so she's rarely gonna be around, waiting for my other beloved coworker to come back from maternity leave in another week, and then the "one" that I don't like is the one I'm with EVERY DAY!). Oh yeah, and then my responsibilities of being a mom, wife, part-time housekeeper (Charles is part-time housekeeper right now too), occassional chef, and DOG TRAINER (what the heck? I know...my husband is tired of the dog pooping on the fireplace) oh my....wait my incubation time is up in the lab. I'll be back after I finish this experiment...

Ok. Yeah, so I've decided that I'm gonna tread water for the next couple of months. I'm not going to swim to any "destination" right now, I'm just gonna do what I have to do to keep myself mentally, and physically above water. The interesting thing about this is it requires stepping up my game as far as my spiritual life. Gone are the days of not cracking open the Bible on a daily basis! Yeah, I said it...I haven't always opened my Bible on a daily basis! But God knows, I've got to. The tv, movies and other entertainment right now are put on pause for the most part until I can at least get to Hawaii! Oh thank God Hawaii is on the horizon. I won't say the dates because this is the internet (my house does have an alarm system and a very attentive neighbor). Meanwhile some of the more ambitious goals have to be put on back burner. And I'm okay with that. Master's program? Sure, just not starting in January. Maybe I'll take one psych class and maybe a Bible college class if my hubby takes one I'm interested in. It'll be nice to go to class together! I'm looking forward to treading water till the end of the 2009...and then, finally swimming to a new stage of life in 2010.